well then .
im going back to express. but if i dun get at least 60% for EVERY subject , im droppin back to normal..
uh huh ...
this sucks .... im gonna miss annecy , eliza and claud:(
okay im super grounded for like for my whole life....
yupp
and!
tmr im off ... im gonna miss my dumdum :((
this sucks ..... cant talk to dumdum for 216 over hours :(


arghhh
hahhahah
ohhwells my aunty SURPRISINGLY
bought me white skinnies



out of the blue man
hahhahaha
lallalalalalal
wheeeeeee

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me and edison's whole ...
ok not whole maybe half
convo

HE STARTED IT not me: P



byebye

im done for it yo
its all gone .
all of it. so wads gonna happen now?
i think i might be droping to normal?
haha laugh at that manzx .
im so screwed , my bill has gone like over 100+++
so like my dads gonna cut off my line .
no more line for me yo. i gonna get prepaid.
no free incomming or shit .
i rather like die or something . ohhwells blame it on myself manz.
i msg too much and shit .its really my fault isnt it? i think i screwed up . why the fk cant i be that stupid lil girl who listens to mommy and daddy and stay home EVERYDAY . yeah yeah as im typing this shit , my mums nagging abt me to have to change my lifestyle.
i like it the way i am actually .
wad do u wan me to do if im like that ? wad do u wan me to do if im really gonna drop to normal? u wan me go on my knees and beg the teachers t o let me get back to express? for wad?
if i dun belong there , wad am i gonna do ?? its not like i dun wanna be in express ....
argh ...
i hate this shit manz
i hate it so much i dun feel like doing anything anymore.
maybe i should end everything , its not fair for someone.
im sorry .......
im so fked up right now i cant think straight ,
my parents arent helping much .
they're just nagging away , on how screwed i'll be if i drop to normal . how im gonna waste one more year .
BUT WHAT THE F DO U WAN ME TO DO IF I REALLY AM DROPPING????
i hate it ,
ohh yeah if yall are reading this . dun msg or call my line no more .
my dads gonna get it cutt.
until further notices.
i guess...
arghhhh
i noe its 'for my good' my parents are doing this .
and i noe i should listen to them .
they are my parents after all and i shoulden defy them .
but i hate it .
i hate it so much .
i dun wanna be controlled.
i dun wanna do anything anymore .
i hate it i hate it i hate it .....

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gooodbye

I'm tired. I give up. I have lost, I am defeated. This blog is as good as dead. Well it is dead.I don't understand why things have turned out this way, or way you act this way. It's just STUPID how everything is now. And you aren't helping a single bit, you don't explain, you don't want to explain. When I want to talk to you, ask you what is wrong,GtgArghNvmYou don't understandMaybe it's better we don't talk for awhileFollowed by a message telling me you have gone offline. If you don't want to talk to me, just say so, or block me. I wait the whole damn day for you to come online, and yet, I'm afraid to say anything. Because either you don't answer, or you give short answers, or replies that can't even be considered answers, or you go offline before I can finish saying what I want to say.Or maybe the SMS variation of this issue. I message you probably in the morning, or the late night perhaps, and go to school. When I come back, I am afraid to look at my phone, because the disappointment of not having a reply is terrible. Though it is expected. I look at my phone from a distance, make a gamble with myself, something like, if there is a reply waiting, I will be a millionaire the next day. Which of course does not happen. In the rare event there is a reply (OMG!!! :DDD), it is something less than three lines. Except for maybe one amazingly long six lines, but I had to beg for that.And so, I have been reduced to begging for replies like a dog. I have been reduced to fear talking to you more than anything else. You used to tell me everything supposedly, now when I want to hear something, anything, all I get is nothing.I feel like shit, trying to get you to talk to me, because I don't even know what you are thinking. I get this feeling I am annoying you. But you deny it. But then again you don't give me a proper reason either. You avoid me the whole day. All I ask is half an hour of your time so that we can talk this out. BUT NO! That can't be done either.I'm not going to try anymore. I give up. You've changed so much. You won't talk to me anymore. Fine. I won't stress you out any further. I shan't bother you anymore. But before I end off I am going to admit I hate you.I do not hate you for rejecting me, that is something that can't be avoided, I have already accepted the fact that we can't be anything more than we are now. I understand it and I accept it. You claim you care... You claim you will talk to me once you've "thought through everything"... I've had enough, I'm sick of this, I'm sick of you and your stupid games, I'm sick of myself and my stupidity.If you wanted to end it, JUST FUCKING END IT. I'm tired of waiting day after day for you to cheer up. I don't even know if you're sad in the first place or just irritated by me. I didn't know things would turn out this way, but it has.Give me a reason to prove me wrong, give me a reason to say sorry, and I will. But you won't. You don't care. Don't even try that you care about me crap with me, you don't. You just don't.Well perhaps there is something good that came out of this stupid episode, I've learnt a lesson. Maybe it's some stupid test that the dude up there in Heaven gives out to random people occasionally. Well I've learnt my lesson.You're probably going to do another blog post on how much you don't care anymore, how much you hate me as well, how much you're right and I'm wrong, you'll do everything but prove what I say false. I don't care anymore. I'm not going to fight anymore, I'm not going to try anymore. It isn't worth the hurt and tears.And just so there isn't a shadow of doubt, I'm talking about you, Zoey. Not that it matters, you'll probably have a good laugh about this post.I hate you.









hello zhenyang
if ur reading this u ,
im sorry abt it .... i guess it really was ... wait IS my fault,

ohhwells im feeling really damn shit now...


i shall continue this post later
my mum just came home

haha
im back!
lol its three in the morning
and im not sleeping yet
hahhahahah ive been talking over the phone for a few hours:P
lol
hahahahha
and im stilll borrreeddddd
hahahahh









lalalala
im boreddddddddd
this is a waste of time , shit.
hahah i think im wasting my life away not doing anything....
&
im hungry:(
today ..... hmmmmm i bought ear sticks! lol but i kinda lost a few ready ....
waste ma money:(
sttttupiddd...

lalalalalalala
im gonna be up until like ard 5 plus again
den i will go slp
lol ... i shall not blog no more...
waste time....


ohh and i need at least 3 days allowance more ,
to get enuf money to buy blue skinnies and my grey cardigan.....



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